For months and months been on the run,
Had myself a bit of fun.
Tore down all my truths of old,
Replaced them with some sins so bold.
In the flesh I did reside,
The more you sin the more you die.
It eases e-motional pain,
Sin enough you’ll feel no shame.
But go on you’ll find some trouble,
And when then comes your pride will double.
So sure I was of Christ’s untruth,
I laughed at Christians on youtube.
Dumb it seemed that some believed,
One man could replace our primal needs.
Sacrifice, deny yourself, worry not, you won’t see Hell.
Hahaha, haha, hehe, the things he speaks of I won’t take heed.
For I was sure that I knew better, that heavenly things were not too clever.
Dumb it was to live this life thinking one day you’ll see the light.
What light, what proof, what evidence? Where is this God that some still seek?
Nowhere, nowhere, He goes unseen, but this God of light lets blind men see.
For you see I came to truth – that evil exists, and me it used.
Day by day I could not rest, could not stop sin, did not repent.
But when I prayed my heart did open, God returned, covenant He honored.
Showed me to the days of old, when we were close and I wasn’t so cold.
Amazing how when there’s no evil, you find your own evil has doubled.
But after mocking God is through, and your world has fallen through,
And you’re sure you have no chance, that you have tripped on your last dance,
And of good feelings there’s none left, no way this life holds hope; you’re doomed.
That’s when I think it’s time to pray, and if you listen, you’ll know why I say –
That God who lives up high above, that God who you so boldly told –
That with all your heart you don’t believe, who you once deemed a mental disease,
That same God you went against, He will still be there when you’re on the fence,
And it won’t be long before you see, that God so loves you, He’s all you need.
– Thomas M. Watt